So yesterday, in the morning, my weight was “down” to 160.3. (I put “down” in quotes, because 160.3 is still 8 pounds higher than the lowest weight I’d reached, and I’m disgusted with myself for allowing it to creep back up.)
This morning I weighed again, and I’m now at 160.0.
So it’s gradually coming back down…but it’s going to take some focus.
Yesterday I did OK, although I knew that I wanted to make dinner for my family, and I knew I would have a difficult time controlling my hunger until 6:00. Usually I eat my Lean Cuisine at about 5:00 at the latest.
So yesterday afternoon, I purposely had a snack of cheese and crackers at about 3:30, and that worked well to keep me from being totally famished by dinner.
Nonetheless, I had a difficult time controlling myself with portions. I’d fixed what I call chicken pot pie, which is an easy casserole that my family loves. It’s cut up cooked chicken breast, mixed vegetables, sauteed celery, and cream of chicken soup, topped with a can of Pillsbury refrigerator biscuits that have been split into thirds and brushed with melted butter and sprinkled with garlic powder. It’s not necessarily a “bad” (fattening) thing, if you just take a little of the biscuit topping and a very moderate portion.
I dished up a normal amount of casserole, and I would have been OK if I’d stopped there. But I was very hungry, and it tasted really good, so I gave myself “just a dollop more,” and then (of course) “had” to pour myself another third of a glass of milk to go with it.
I have no idea how many calories my dinner was…probably well over 500…
I did OK, in that I did not stuff myself, but I definitely did not need that second portion.
Anyway, after dinner, I suddenly got antsy and decided to make some tea and have some candy. I had 4 or 5 pieces of the See’s Candy that was left over from Easter. Again, I don’t know the calorie content, but I’m guessing each piece was 75 or 100 calories.
I did run close to 3 miles yesterday, and I did watch everything else I ate. But I could feel last night as I went to bed that I would not see a significant drop on the scale, as normally if I stick with my plan and only have a Lean Cuisine for dinner at 5:00, I go to bed with that slightly hungry feeling and wake up with a loss. But last night, after two portions of dinner and the candy, I went to bed feeling full.
And I was right. The numbers were slightly down (.3 of a pound), but not significantly, considering that what had caused the gain had been a huge meal.
Anyway, that was OK, but I am reminding myself to pick up, dust off, and keep going. I want to see the numbers back down to where they were, and I have to be serious about this.
Tonight my challenge will be dinner. My husband and I have a habit of going out on Wednesday nights while the kids are at their church class. It’s our date night. The last couple of date nights have involved me TOTALLY over-indulging at Chilli’s. Yikes. Like, we even ordered chips and salsa, and I mindlessly wolfed the chips, inhaling them like I didn’t have a thought in the world about what I was doing. That’s the kind of behavior that has “earned” my weight gain. Sigh.
I need to plan ahead, one way or another, and not do anything like that tonight. Either we don’t go out to eat, or I plan in advance where we go and what I will order.
Here’s what I ate yesterday: South Beach bar (140); orange (100); Slim-Fast shake (190); broccoli (100); cheese (200); crackers (140); chicken casserole (600?); candy (300?). Total: 1,970.
See – this is a good reality check for me. It didn’t feel like I’d eaten almost 2,000 calories yesterday. But I did. It’s good to be brutally honest. I’m going to see the scale numbers go back down.
