Tuesday update May 21, 2008

Well…

The chips in the other room were just too much for me.  I knew they were there, and I could imagine how good a few of them and some salsa would be.  I very deliberately ripped open the bag, nearly giving myself a bad paper cut in the process.  In fact, both the bag and the jar of salsa were nearly impossible to open…maybe that was a sign?  Heh.

I did try to exert some self-control, though.  I deliberately counted out two servings (each serving was 140 calories, so two servings means 280 calories) and took just a can of Diet Coke instead of pouring a large glass from a 2-liter bottle (which would have prompted me to keep eating chips, until the Diet Coke was gone).

And I’m actually fairly full from those two handfuls of chips (1 serving is 14 chips).  In earlier times, back when Crazed Addict Fatgirl completely ruled my life, I would have sat here with the bag and just gone to town till I felt a little sick…or until the jar of salsa was gone.  Or both.  But tonight I’m finding that I don’t want any more at ALL.  They don’t have power over me like they used to.

I’m not going to derail my progress.

Plugging along – as usual May 21, 2008

The title of this post just about says it all.  The past few days, I’ve been plugging along as usual, working out and sticking with my Jenny Craig-esque food plan.  I haven’t felt particularly hungry or tempted to stray.  I weighed in the other day and was at 170.2 – the 160s are so tantalizingly close!  Soon I will have lost 20 pounds, and I don’t want to mess it up at this point.

Right now I’m just a tad bit restless.  American Idol is on, and I ate dinner pretty early this afternoon (right after 4:00, because I was so incredibly hungry from working out so hard).  I know there are chips and salsa left over from Saturday’s party, and I keep thinking about them – chips and salsa, and maybe a huge glass of Diet Coke.  I have to be honest – I miss the pleasure of sitting here in front of the TV, combining the fun of food with the fun of a good show.  (Although I have to say, this year’s American Idol has been oddly bland…I hate that little wimpy David Archuleta with his femmy, whispery voice and gigantic caterpillar eyebrows.  David Cook has so much more power as an artist and performer…I’d buy his album in a moment.)

But I’m not going to cave.  At least, I don’t think so.

Here’s what was on today’s menu:

South Beach bar (140); yogurt (100); mixed fruit (grapefruit and some peaches) (120); Slim-Fast Optima shake (190); broccoli (100); turkey dinner (460); milk (90); prunes (200).  Total:  1410.